Telehealth has reminded me that when I let go of the things I fear losing, I allow them to transform themselves and me. In this context, I am letting go of my closely held model of therapy and my self-protective need to feel good at it.

But when wrestling with fear today, I squared my shoulders and said to nothing in particular, “This year is the year I rise above fear.” It’s a simple statement with no real meaning other than it helped me remember that in 2018 I proved to myself that love sooths fear.